Daily Scribbles

College: A Gateway for New Beginnings

So I’ve decided, I’m going to leave my car at home while Im off to college. I’ll be going to Augsburg, right smack in the middle of the twin cities. Im sure there will be other sources of transportation. I’m going to quit working at Culvers too. Right now Im working only 2 days a week and the feeling of being broke sucks. Have you ever driven around in your car with your gas tank on E.? It’s probably one of the WORST feelings ever. & Thats exactly how I feel when Im broke. Once college hits, I’ll find a new job and make sure no one knows of it besides my closest friends. Im tired of people using me for money and rides. I’m tired of guys thinking it’s okay that they dont have to come see me because I can simply just go see them. Cause Im “the one with the car.” Im tired of having to pay for dinner and Im tired of being tired. A new chapter is about to begin in my life, it’s time I start doing things different.

I’ve been waiting for quite some time now… can you just send me a sign that my wait will be worth it.? </3

Must I be helpless.?

I work. I drive. I have my own car. I do my own thing. I’m independent. I’m smart. I’m tall. I’m somewhat athletic. I’m strong. I can hold things down on my own. But that doesn’t mean I don’t want to feel loved and protected. Must I be completely helpless for you to feel man enough to make me your women.? I’m sorry to say that Im not your typical hmong chick.

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At one point, that girl you’re calling a bitch, was once a girl who cared too much about a guy & it made him feel comfortable to do whatever he wanted. She was too clingy with him & it made him feel like he can choose to ignore her. She got jealous too often & it made him feel like he can bring up other girls to purposely bother her. She was too nice & it made him feel like he can walk all over her. At one point, that girl you’re calling a slut was once a girl who never showed any skin & was called “ugly” or “boring”. Who was cheated on & it made her feel like she wasn’t good enough for anybody. Who was lied to, led on & used by a guy & it made her feel like that’s all she’s worth. Truth is, a lot of fucked up things happen to girls, they are the way they are for a reason.

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(via dertyylove)

Shit just aint the same once my hearts outta the game. Don’t blame me for being a bitch.

Reblogged from {soul searching}